Dear Samuel, August 1, 2013
Happy 4th Birthday, sweet boy! I really can't believe it's been four years since you came into this world. What an incredible blessing your life was and continues to be. I am so thankful God gave you to us -- that He chose us to love you, treasure you, rejoice in you, and be forever changed by you. Your mark on my life is permanent and beautiful, and I am overwhelmed with gratitude for you and your precious life.
Our family is at Pine Cove Woods Family Camp right now, and it is a sweet place to be as we remember you. This place has had a tremendous impact on my faith and relationship with Jesus, and it comforts my heart to be here -- where so much growth toward God has happened in my life -- as we celebrate your birthday.
This afternoon we'll all write messages on balloons and eat a special snack in celebration of you, and we'll release the balloons on the bridge on the lake. I'm glad that in some small way you get to be part of Pine Cove, too.
This morning David Daniels gave a talk on suffering. He referenced Ecclesiastes 6:13-14, and it hit so close to home on this day:
"Consider what God has done:
Who can straighten what he has made crooked?
When times are good, be happy;
but when times are bad, consider:
God has made the one
as well as the other.
Therefore, a man cannot discover
anything about his future."
God made your heart crooked, sweet boy. He wrote your story of only 31 days. This is the story He penned, and it is lovely. David talked about how our theology is laid bare in the struggles of life, and when I remember our time with you, I see how our feet were firmly planted in the truth of Jesus. Your life refined ours, deepened our faith in God, and purified our love for Him. He brought such beautiful things from you, Samuel Erik Apinis.
There is a new member of our family! Eliza was born on April 29. You now have two older brothers and two younger sisters. They are all precious. We talk about you regularly in our family. Anna is learning more and more about you, and Caleb brings you up from time to time. We miss you, and your hole in our family is felt.
When I was pregnant with Eliza, people often told me how perfect two boys and two girls are. But I know it's not perfect as you are missing. I think 3 boys and 2 girls would be just right. :)
Samuel, I love you, and I always will. You will always be my third son, and you will always be part of our family.
Happy 4th Birthday, little one!
Love, Momma
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